Things are going well in Newbury land. I've been sort of lost and confused with my work life and friend unit, but for the first time in my life, I can say that I'm happy. Completley happy. I really credit my amazing husband for that. I also have the best neighbors/best friends on the planet and I'm loving it.
I've been an unhappy person for so long and I didn't even realize it. I think a lot of that had to do with leaving my family and moving to Fayetteville. I did a hell of a lot of growing up there and I wouldn't trade any of it for anything. I did a lot of damage to myself and to others by staying there for so long, but in the end I count myself lucky for being able to pick up and leave in the end. I miss fayetteville often, I miss good coffee from Arsegas,my favorite restaurants (Taste of Thai and Hugos), and my old job at the bakery. There is also really never a day that i don't pine a little bit for Ian Argo and Daniel Field, my two camp brothers. They were such a huge part of my life for so many years and it feels like a big piece of me is missing. I guess I miss a lot about Fayetteville. But I can't go back. My best friend Casey is in the process of moving back from Louisiana and now that she and her husband are going to be so much closer it is so delicious to entertain the idea of Steve and I moving to Fayetteville and being with Casey and Eric all the time. Steve and I both know I would never ask him to do that. I don't belong there and I am such a better wife to him, not having the distractions of being unhappy to contend with everyday.
It has taken me some time to understand where I do actually belong and I know it is here. I know that Fayetteville is not my home and the Cousins Crew is not my home. My husband and the life I have with him, for better or for scatterbrained is the perfect life for me.
I love my vintage g.p.s. knowing, snap brimmed hat wearing better half. I love to smell his scalp when he's sleeping, I love how excited he gets over a fresh pot of hazelnut coffee, I love the smell of gasoline in our garage, the look on his face when I put a new plate of dinner experiments in front of him. I love how kind he is to everyone he loves and how snarky he is under his breath to people he doesn't know.
I am Jessica Claire Newbury and I am blessed. I have amazing friends, a beautiful home, dreams of travel to sweet smelling place, friends that are worth more than their weight In gold and a husband that makes me smile and I approve this message.
